Saturday, April 21, 2012

Time Flies

It seems that time flies faster than I am aware.  Here we are coming up on the end of April (2 months since last post) and I am not certain if my words have brought encouragement or helped someone to hang on and hang in. 

If this is your first time here I would encourage you to look up the song "It Does Get Better" on youtube.  It is a great song and speaks to the fight - the fight and plight of bullying and being gay.  So please hang in there and talk to someone you think you can trust.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Hate Crime

And yet another person becomes a victim of a hate crime - this time because she showed support for gay marriage and it angered two people who disagreed! Here we go still.......I am pleased it is being investigated as a hate crime because clearly there is no other explanation.
Destinie Mogg-Barkalow and others who support human rights need this to be treated as a hate crime.  We need to step up and say this is no longer acceptable! Bullying our children in schools to the point of them committing suicide,  outing our college students relationships, denying us the rights given to other citizens- ALL unacceptable.  How do we expect our children to believe it gets better when we are continuing to fight battles that seem to set us back?  Governors having a say as to whether we should be given access to marry speaks louder than most anything else.  I myself am not sure how this right to marry was even allowed to become a battle - except recycled prejudice.  That is the only explanation I have.....recycled prejudice.  The battle is really no different than battles faced by other groups as a result of prejudice, fear, ignorance, and hatred....recycled prejudice.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

The L Project

I am sharing a link from The L Project;  The UK charity song "It Does Get Better" - geared towards anti-bullying.  Everyone on this project donated their time, allowing for ALL proceeds to be donated to anti-bullying resources.

It is a FABULOUS song!  Check it out! Buy the tune!  Here's the link:
www.youtube.com

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Homosexuality & Politics

Ok...so today I read online that a Tennessee teen killed himself after repeated harassment.  It is said that 14 yr. old Phillip Parker was constantly ridiculed.  The article went on to state that this is Tennessee's 2nd teen suicide in 2 months as lawmakers in this state are reconsidering passing a bill called "don't say gay" bill.  This bill bans talking about homosexuality in public schools from kindergarten to 8th grade. 
Did we not learn anything from the Don't Ask - Don't Tell bill?  It didn't work then, why would it work in schools?  I'm not saying that we need to teach about the homosexuality lifestyle in schools, I'm saying that we need to leave the door open for those who are homosexual and need to talk to someone.  But to silence this topic leaves these youngsters prone to bullying and other forms of ridicule.  How is that fair?  I suppose there are those who could care less that 2 lives have been lost in 2 months - but you know what - I care ......... these are young people who had entire lives ahead of them.......who knows how their lives could have blessed those around them and further.  Who are we to say - so what - they were gay - who cares? This is just so wrong on so many fronts and so little is being done.  Call yourself a politician and dictate who can live how, or call yourself a christian and decide that passing judgment upon others is your religious and moral obligation and I tell you........shame on you!  None of you have the right to judge another - let alone censor.......isn't that what Tennessee lawmakers are doing when they say no one can speak of homosexuality in the school system? Is that not censorship? Where the hell are we living? I don't get it...........and yet sadly I do.  These hate mongers are passing laws based upon fear and ignorance - that's it...........nothing more - nothing less........I encourage you people to stop and ask yourself ok ............ this law is being presented....... how would I feel if that law applied to me?
Take homosexual out of the equation....let's say it applied to you personally for whatever reason, maybe your gender, your race, your religion and someone wanted to censor you? How would you feel? Someone could help your own child when they would not come to you personally - but was told they cannot because oh well - they're Portuguese, or they're Methodist, or they're a girl or boy...sounds ridiculous right? But that is what is occurring.  People are out there spreading hate and fear based upon ignorance and prejudice...........and yet still in 2012 this is absolutely ok......
It's time to wake up people!
Below is the link to the article that I read...please do read.

http://www.gay.net/news/2012/01/23/second-teen-suicide-tenn-dont-say-gay-bill-returns

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Why bully?

So, it's been a few days since I've been on here - time does fly.  I am curious and please feel free to comment; why do people bully? What is the bullier getting out of it?  It also seems that there is a lack of empathy, because certainly one who has the ability to be empathetic would not resort to bullying.  I suppose my next question is can empathy be taught? Lastly, is bullying a self esteem issue? It is understood that the one being bullied is having their self esteem mutilated daily, but what about the self esteem of the bullier? Has their self esteem been torn down that in order to feel better they have to tear another down?
I am interested in hearing the thoughts of others, so please feel free to leave comments.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Struggling - but love conquers

There are some days I just cannot think about bullying, suicide, homosexuality, hate crimes and other injustices going on throughout the world. It all weighs me down and leaves me feeling very weary.
I understand that talk of Jesus or God is touchy for some people, but not for me. I love my God. However,  I understand that they think if there is a God then why does suffering exist?  It exists because we are born of free will.  Here in this country we have choices AND consequences.  God is not responsible for the consequences as a result of our choices.  It is what it is.
Today I choose to ignore all the negativity and think about God and think about LOVE.  I have someone who loves me more than anyone else I know.  This person loves me and all that I bring to the table.  Believe me what I bring to to the table can be chaotic-  a sense of me; caring, empathetic, humorous, sarcastic, creative, opinionated, understanding, angry, passionate, person.  My luv gets all that about me.  My luv accepts all those things about me.  I know that this person saved my life.  She loved me when I felt unlovable but was willing to take a chance.  It was a blind date - and going on almost 4 years later...here we are...loving and understanding one another.  Supporting, sharing, venting, and picking at each other.  At the end of the evening and the beginning of each day we know this - LOVE is a wonderful thing.  It is sacrificial, it is non judgmental, it is wonderfully frustrating and all consuming at times.  It is the good, the bad, and the ugly...it is what it is - as the saying goes these days.  It is work, but anything worth having is work. 
I know that I love her, I know that she gets me.  I know that when a biological family is supposed to love unconditionally and does not - she does! AND that is all that matters to me.  We share love of nature, the arts, motorcycles, one particular lil blonde haired chihuahua, God, and each other...and that is more than enough.  So, if you have that someone - to share all things with, and it does not have to be a lover, it can be a trusted BFF....just know that love is important...it keeps us hanging on when the world and all that is negative seems to swallow us.  When the day to day seems to be a struggle this love can keep you hanging on and hanging in.

Monday, January 23, 2012

Bullying - don't buy into it

Look - I'm gonna try and be as real as a person can possibly be....being picked on, being dehumanized, being told you are nothing, being fed negative messages on a daily basis - whether at home, school, in your community - it sucks.  There's no way around it - it really, really sucks!  But you are not those messages.  You do not have to buy into what you are hearing.  You are a unique individual with unique talents, abilities, and gifts.  Those are yours  and yours alone.  People who put you down, leave you feeling less good about yourself are only doing it to make themselves feel better.  You won't recognize it, you will think - they seem so confident about themselves, they're so cool.  They're not really, they are acutally hurting too.  They have to be...self assured, confident people do not put others down to make themselves feel better...they just don't do that.  So, the next time someone is belittling you keep in mind they have their own issues.  They have their own pain.  I realize that as you are going through this, what the other person is feeling is irrelevant.  You could care less.  You are not out trying to hurt them, they are intentionally trying to hurt you...trying to stand you out in front of a bunch of people so they can boost their own self esteem.  But, if you can remember this then maybe as you walk by them you can hold your head a little higher knowing the issue is not within you, but it is within them.  Maybe if you say anything you can say - I feel sorry for you....and keep walking - head held high - they will know what you mean.....if you do not say it then maybe you think it and keep walking - head held high.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Cyber Bully

You hide behind your keyboard
cowardly disguised
hateful words spewing forth
seeking another's demise.

You prattle on while feeling
oh so very brave
as you shred another
with the mean-ness that you crave.

You prey upon their spirit
believing they are weak
yet you are no different
approval you do seek.

Step away from the keyboard
stop texting with your phone
end the spineless behavior
your hate is not condoned.
(DLC © 1/182012)

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Coming Out

For the bullied & the bullier -
Coming Out is a terrifying experience; what will people think of me? Can you think of anything more difficult? Regardless of your age...and believe me...I didn't come out til I was 39, I was extremely terrified, but I knew something had to give.  I felt like the weight of the world was upon my shoulders.  There could not have been any more darkness.  I wanted to cut out, I wanted to cut, I wanted to get high, drunk, anything that would and could take me away from what I was feeling in my life.  Y'all know what I'm talking about.  The feeling of unworthiness.  Somehow even if you were fortunate enough that others did not leave you feeling like an outsider - you felt totally outside.   Ya know? Bullying when I was in high school was not like it is today.  When I was in high school we were still dealing with racial differences.  It was not like the 60's, but more unspoken, but the tension was there - it was underlying.  So bullying came in different forms.  It came because you were fat, you were not popular...things like that.  But it didn't seem to be like it is today.  Y'all are so MEAN.  What is going on?  Why do you want to berate someone to the point of ugliness? Why do you wish others dead?  Even after you have bullied someone to the point that they take their lives - lately that's not good enough for y'all.  You still gotta push.  You gotta leave hateful messages on Facebook and Twitter and text all kinds of hateful things.  WHY?  I wish y'all would come forward and explain this to me.  Why do you get pleasure from someone else's pain?
OK...so this is just bullying in school.  What about the religious sector? You know who you are.  You feel fully entitled to cast judgment upon others in the name of GOD.  Are you kidding me?  Ya know -the Bible clearly states "judge not lest you be judged." AND yet - y'all feel very free to be casting judgments.  I get it - we live in a totally judgmental society, yet claiming to be a Christian culture.  What a contradiction.  I was told that I was disgusting and an abomination when I came out from those who call themselves Christians. 
A very wise friend said to me, "a sin is something that separates you from God".  That is pretty cut and clear.  Well, I didn't feel separated from God.  I had an active prayer life and saw His blessings within in my life and around me.  No, I did not agree with what I was hearing from the church or from my family.  It was a masquerade.  But some how in my heart of hearts I did not believe God was the person these people wanted me to believe He was, and I still do not.
Sooooo, anyway - regardless - we still have this issue - we are told we are not good enough, we are told we are less than human - we are told we're sick - we are told soooo many things that we begin to believe it.  AND if we are ALL those things, then surely the world would be better off without us - right?  WRONG!!!! Y'all couldn't be more wrong.  You are still a child of God.  As I see it - if I am sinning against God - well hell - that's between Me and Him!  It's not for anyone else to decide!  So, until I meet Him face to face - I need to move forward with the person He created.  With all my talents and abilities I need to move on.  You need to move on.  You - believe it or not are touching lives.  You will not always know the lives that you are touching or the difference you are making - but tap into your passion - your desires and go with it.  Forget the rest of them! Let your light shine!  These people that are bringing you down - are insecure within themselves.  Let's face it - if they felt good about themselves - and I mean really good about themselves - they would not be wasting time putting others down.  It is those who need to boost themselves who degrade others.
So please - hang in there - do not give up...as the organization says; "It Gets Better" - it really does.  I have been to the brink of darkness and back.......it does get better....but you have to hang in there to find out...so please hang in there!

Monday, January 16, 2012

They Couldn't Stay

Someone took their life today
pain so deep
they couldn't stay.

Whispers echoed through the soul
all alone
no longer whole.

Did you look the other way
when you saw
hate on display?

Someone took their life today
pain so deep
they couldn't stay.
(DLC © 2012)

For those of you being bullied, know that you are strong! Do not buy into the words that are being whispered.  Hold your head high and know that you are worthy.  Find your voice and speak up to anyone and everyone. Make them listen to you so that the bullying will stop.  The bulliers are counting on your silence - like all offenders, they hope their intimidation works and not only dehumanizes you but silences you.  Do not give up - if you give up - they win.

For those of you who are watching the bullying...step up and step in!  If you cannot step in then step up and report it.  A life could depend upon it today!

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Hey Everyone - one of my favorite quotes comes from the Greek Philosopher Plato - and it is still very appropriate today;

                                   "Please my friends be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

                                                     ~Plato~

We really do not know what kind of day a person is having, we do not know if someone is hanging in and hanging on by a thread.  Yet one kind word or kind gesture could turn it around for that person and maybe - just maybe - cause them to pause and hold on another day.

Friday, January 13, 2012

It Is There


Why in 2009 do we still deal with ignorance?
     Have we learned nothing?
Ignorance spawns fear and hatred
    -Hurt them because they are different-
Refusal to open minds
     Hiding behind the cloaks of religious beliefs
Mere puppets
     Unable to form their own thoughts
Screaming - it's morally wrong!
     I demand to know - how is it wrong!?
Am I hurting you?
     Am I stepping on your rights?
You say you do not judge
     But it is there
When I cannot hold her hand in public
     It is there
When you say to me, no you cannot marry
     It is there
It is there in Don't Ask Dont' Tell
    When a child is not safe in school
It is there
    In aloneness and suicide
It is there
     It is there in churches
Persecuted
     By family members and other self righteous believers
Every day you deny me my rights
     You persecute
You judge, yet talk of God's love
     Yet God's love
Is not something I see in you
     I see condemnation and prejudice
-It Is There.
                       DLC © 2009


Saddening

http://www.ibtimes.co.uk/articles/281542/20120113/eric-james-borges-gay-teen-trevor-project.htm

Another life gone too soon.............when will this stop? I too am angered by the senseless behavior and words of homophobic people; Christians, family members, peers....etc.....
I wrote a poem in 2009 reflecting my thoughts on such things.....I will add it to my blog.  Sad how little things change.

Heavy Heart

What is to be gain
by calling people out
individually or collectively?
Animosity situated around prejudices.

By word or by force
the Spirit, the body
wearied, battered
struggled to endure

Yet another's beloved
gone to soon
the consequence
of antagonism.
DLC © 2011

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Shine

By not hiding
under the shroud of shame
we begin to enlighten
those who do not understand.
DLC © 2011

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Embrace

Embrace your distinctiveness
   in so doing
   love is allowed to enter in.

When this love, this light
   encloses,
Recognize, the bitterness
   and hate of others
   seeking to impair your core
   has no place to dwell.
       DLC © 2011

Monday, January 9, 2012

Not Sure

Ok...look - let's be real....I'm not sure how to work this blog thing or get people to my page.  I don't travel in circles where numerous people will come and check it out just cuz of curiousity.  I only want one thing...PEACE....I want young people to stop being so DAMN mean.  I don't understand it.  What do you get out of calling someone out? Be it due to weight, money, style, sexuality....whatever...seriously we can call anyone out for any reason because we are all different.  That is the GRAND PLAN...we all are  created differently.  Yet lately that's not ok....mean-ness is applauded now-a-days.  I do not know how to reach those who are struggling with being picked on ...day after day...I'm not a celebrity.  All I know is that every life is precious.  Those of you who are being picked on - day - after - day- after day....understand that those who are picking on you are lacking in self esteem.  In spite of what you think and in spite of what THEY believe they are not ALL that! If they thought or even believed they were all that...well they would feel secure enough within themselves to not feel the need to pick on others.  THEY only pick on others to make themselves feel better.  I urge those of you who are being picked on...stand up to the bulliers.  If you cannot do that...tell someone whose voice is stronger than yours.  DO NOT allow them the power to bring you down so much that you believe cutting out would be better - CUZ it's not better.  Better for who? You know, I used to be -you.  I used to think that others would be better off if I was no longer around.  My inability to lift myself up beyond the darkness that I was feeling was weighing others down...that's what I thought - it's what I believed.  It's not true.  Certainly others want us to be happy, BUT...compared to the alternative - they would rather we work through the sadness, the darkness - and find YOUR VOICE!  Believe it or not, there is strength in finding your voice....so I encourage you all...be strong...and regardless of what you hear....FIND YOUR VOICE!  Stick around - hang in there - first and foremost, for yourself.  BUT if you can't do it for yourself - do it for someone....anyone...UNTIL you can do it for YOU.  There is a light and YOU will SHINE!  Do not let ANYONE and I mean ANYONE tell you otherwise! 

Lean On Him

You doubt your own abilities
they've slammed you oh so much
Lean on Him, Raise your head
and declare you've had enough.

There lies a voice within you
its grown weaker by the day
Now's the time to clear your throat
you've so much left to say.

Don't buy into the cutting words
that tear just like a knife
Lean on Him, Raise your head
Now's the time to fight!

Fight for yourself and others
who have yet to find their voice
let them know you won't give up
because you have a choice.

Standing tall, with head held high
supported another day
I have chosen to lean on Him
Now there's light along the way.
DLC © 1/9/2012

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Ridiculousness

OK....it is reported that a young girl takes her own life as a result of bullying.  The family still can not find peace because the haters are out there mocking the girls death on facebook (this information can be found on the Stop Teenage Suicide site.  I realize there are no laws against such evil behavior....similar to groups protesting and spewing hate about homosexuals at funerals.  What is going on?  How do these people feel good about their actions? Are they in such an inferior place that playing on the grief of others actually makes them feel better? Seriously?  Clearly the answer to those questions are YES. Yes they obviously feel good about their behavior because they are making a choice to continually act in such a disturbed manner. Obviously YES they are feeling quite inferior and lack any self esteem because individuals who have even a morsal of positive self-esteem would have a moral compass - which clearly these populations lack.
How do we teach empathy? How can we get involved so there is some accountability for this behavior? Or do we as a society continue to look the other way because it has not affected us personally?
Again I find myself asking how many have to die - senselessly - needlesssly - because we turned a blind eye?

Saturday, January 7, 2012

You Are Not Alone

You are not alone
just pick up the phone
no matter what they say
stay another day
because we really care
many have been there
hear us when we say
please stay another day.
DLC © 1/7/12

National Bullying Prevention Center

I was online reading information from the National Bullying Prevention Center.  The stories are heartbreaking.  Young people simply trying to get through their day and are confronted with mean-ness we did not have when I was in school.  I am glad that sites like these exist.
My years in school are a bit foggy, I was really merely trying to survive and I have to be honest, I was not always the nicest person.  I do not think that I out and out bullied people, but if I was having a bad day someone was probably on the receiving end of some unkind words.  When I saw my peers bullying someone I did nothing to step up and step in.  If however you picked on one of my friends then I would protect them.  My heart is wrapped up in writing about bullying, suicides, and homophobia for many reasons, but mostly because I can relate to these things on some level.  If all it takes is one person standing up and stepping in to give another hope then I want to encourage that.  As the online group states "It Gets Better".  I can honestly say those are not empty words.  It does get better, and if these kids can hang on and hang in til they come through on the other side they will shine!  They need to be inundatd with positive messages and support.  They need and we need to not let the bulliers win.

My Luv

The beauty of your soul
is experienced
because of
your heart's reflection
within
your eyes.
DLC © 2011

As I Am

Acceptance
should not come
with stipulations
for in doing so
the Spirit
of another
is being
undermined.
DLC ©2011