There are some days I just cannot think about bullying, suicide, homosexuality, hate crimes and other injustices going on throughout the world. It all weighs me down and leaves me feeling very weary.
I understand that talk of Jesus or God is touchy for some people, but not for me. I love my God. However, I understand that they think if there is a God then why does suffering exist? It exists because we are born of free will. Here in this country we have choices AND consequences. God is not responsible for the consequences as a result of our choices. It is what it is.
Today I choose to ignore all the negativity and think about God and think about LOVE. I have someone who loves me more than anyone else I know. This person loves me and all that I bring to the table. Believe me what I bring to to the table can be chaotic- a sense of me; caring, empathetic, humorous, sarcastic, creative, opinionated, understanding, angry, passionate, person. My luv gets all that about me. My luv accepts all those things about me. I know that this person saved my life. She loved me when I felt unlovable but was willing to take a chance. It was a blind date - and going on almost 4 years later...here we are...loving and understanding one another. Supporting, sharing, venting, and picking at each other. At the end of the evening and the beginning of each day we know this - LOVE is a wonderful thing. It is sacrificial, it is non judgmental, it is wonderfully frustrating and all consuming at times. It is the good, the bad, and the ugly...it is what it is - as the saying goes these days. It is work, but anything worth having is work.
I know that I love her, I know that she gets me. I know that when a biological family is supposed to love unconditionally and does not - she does! AND that is all that matters to me. We share love of nature, the arts, motorcycles, one particular lil blonde haired chihuahua, God, and each other...and that is more than enough. So, if you have that someone - to share all things with, and it does not have to be a lover, it can be a trusted BFF....just know that love is important...it keeps us hanging on when the world and all that is negative seems to swallow us. When the day to day seems to be a struggle this love can keep you hanging on and hanging in.
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